Literally Inclined

So I bumped into you one last time I never knew it would be the last and I looked into your eyes and you looked in mine I could see that you were tired, but you would not give up If I had only known that I wouldn‘t be able to say goodbye Maybe I would have smiled a little more or stopped my day for a minute or two I could have asked you how you are if you are afraid of what lays ahead but those are the questions we don‘t dare to ask in an everyday in which we avoid pain and suffering I‘ve noticed that you‘re just a shadow of the person you used to be, so likeable and confident But I hope that you will come out stronger On the other side, where you deserve to be And I wish I could have told you that I liked you more than I care to admit but those are the secrets we have to live with in an everyday in which we avoid pain and suffering

We‘ve talked for the last time Like a million years ago And I don‘t remember your smile But I lack reasons to let go Why should I stop loving Everything I held so dear Why should I no longer see But with my heart, I see so clear And I‘ve got nothing left to lose I can no longer hear your voice Can‘t touch or hold you close But you left me with no choice Why should I stop loving Everything I held so dear Why should I no longer see But with my heart, I see so clear Deep down I know you miss me, too Our hearts, they are still connected You cannot take me for a fool This intense feeling, you can‘t neglect it And I won‘t stop loving Everything I held so dear I will never cease to see You in my heart, you are right here

While you climb the ladder of success every step has the potential to be the one before your fall It takes mere seconds to change a life one step in the wrong direction one last smile, a last goodbye While you are wearing your big boy pants you are still taking the baby steps that it takes to make a life It takes mere seconds to change a life one step in the right direction to continue your journey

Sometimes I wish I could hear your thoughts just to see whether or not you feel the same Sometimes I wish I could let you know that you are loved, when all you feel is pain The pain of not knowing your place in this world or the discomfort of feeling like you don‘t belong The pain of having to oppress your true feelings I want you to know that there is no “wrong“ There is no wrong way to be the person you are you have flaws, but they make you unique There is no wrong way to show how wonderful you are And please realize that you are everything but weak Realize that when you smile, I will smile with you even when we are a thousand miles apart Realize that I will cry happy and sad tears with you You hold a special place in my heart

For some, it‘s just a handshake the insignificant touch of two palms one finger, three fingers, then five intertwining for a moment A moment I cherish in my memories like a photograph in an album I can return to it any time I like it‘s those moments that make life worth it And sometimes you just know that this moment wont be as insignificant as a handshake should be, no you know there‘s more to it A handshake turns into a pat on the shoulder, a gentle touch of the cheek that culminates in an infinite hug, a warm embrace For some it‘s just a handshake barely lasting for a few seconds For me it‘s unforgettable You tell me your story, i‘ll tell you mine

It‘s a tragedy of sorts when I look into your puppy eyes I know I‘m meant to think this is inappropriate But I feel as though it‘s an honor that you recognize me And turn around to give you the cold shoulder in an effort to make it stop On one hand, I wish you would disappear into an abyss and take all the mixed feelings, set me free But I feel as though it‘s an honor that you recognize me I live through another day behind the counter in an effort to make it stop On the other hand, it is you who stares into my eyes And I‘m wondering who started the masquerade But I feel as though it‘s an honor that you recognize me And I don‘t really want it to end either so I don‘t make an effort to make it stop I‘m wondering what is going to happen with us It is inevitable that one of us has to leave But I feel as though it‘s an honor that you recognize me I wish you all the best for your life with her I will leave in an effort to make it stop

You remind me of crickets on a hot summer night the only sound that can be heard for miles the air is ripe and the smell of hay lingers in this moment, when it‘s just you and me Running my fingers through your hair just feels right We don‘t need to share any words, our smiles are enough to know we‘re no longer strangers in this moment, when it‘s just you and me Orange turns to dark blue, your shadow in the moonlight We‘re stargazing and fantasizing about our lives We‘ve dreamed of this since we were teenagers in this moment, we start our eternity

“It is not meant to be“, says the mind while the heart still isn‘t sure about possible consequences of blindly following feelings without asking the eyes for permission Your eyes speak volumes, but your mind has decided that your heart should love her, you think your feelings have tricked you they made you feel love for someone like me There is no space for me in a life like yours With picture perfect attributes and no room for broken hearts, deviations from the grand plan or a heart that rules over your own conscience A twist of fate wont change your schedule in which you are occupied, but i‘ve got time on my hands, but my mind will be busy thinking about what could have been But never will be, and so our eyes meet every once in a while, trying to avoid that they know just as well as my mind and your mind that all of this is just an act of self-delusion

I thought I knew but I was wrong Out of the blue you came along You were the bait and I the fish Now it‘s too late You‘ve served the dish The dish was cold and its taste rancid Tragedies unfold when you‘re too candid You‘ve spoiled my day and now I know You‘ve come to slay please sign below ……………………………………………………………………….. The dotted line separates the good from the spoiled and rotten brood In your mind I am the latter Please be so kind and stop your chatter You‘ll disappear without a trace and leave me here in this rat race I did my best and helped you out You ignored the rest got me shut out But I‘ll remain I will be brave the unbearable strain wont be my fate

Gluttony Come chocolate, cure the pain I‘ve said no, but it was in vain Come icecream, numb my sorrow it‘ll all be better tomorrow The scars on my soul wont vanish I can‘t cover them up with that ganache Memories don‘t just fade away from eating another raspberry sorbet The sweetest taste wont make up for a broken heart that can‘t be restored those extra pounds, they weigh me down Will I even fit in my wedding gown? Confidence is but a dream in this life served with whipped cream and a cherry on the top calorie counting, make it stop Protein powder, cottage cheese purely fulfilling dietary needs there is no taste and you‘re not free when food is your worst enemy