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Losing Game

Weigh down my heart, sweet soul, Like a gigantic stone on my chest, I am broken, I am no longer whole, You laid my tormented heart to rest. The days pass by and I miss you still, Mom said ”he’ll never come back”, And I cried out ”Oh, but he will”, It’s the companionship that I lack. I’m still so confused, because I never got to know, if you had any feelings for me, or did you just put up a show? Do you even miss me? I try to tell myself that you dont remember, or that someone else makes you happy, But way back then in November, We were closer than ever, even a bit sappy. Listening to Duncan Laurences ”Arcade” on repeat, I, too, got addicted to a losing game, And I still hope that we would meet, But I guess you have put out our flame. You ran away from me, one time too many, And I finally stopped chasing, No more chances, if there ever were any, that final end game was emaciating. I know it hurts, I know it’s torture, But I d...
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